Meister

[ The word meister originally means "master" in German ]

Running almost at 1 month in the Wireless queue, things sure are lighter. Even though rumors indicate that we will be transferred to the XPS Dept., I think we are perfect here – no hassles, not much stress, and we’re doing our job as well as possible. But there’s something missing…

After my shift yesterday, I actually went on under time, and sprinted to Magallanes. Why? Jenn needs help in terms of their project, wherein they need to product a short film o_O;. Wow, speaking of a project huh… Anyway, I was already expecting that things would get delayed, but unfortunately, things got a little way too delayed. I was thinking that I can go home by 4-5pm.. I was home – at about 10:30pm, 3 hours before work. End result? No sleep, literally.

At work, I was almost at the verge of sleeping while walking and almost nothing is going into my head. It’s a good thing that I was able to pull off the day, with a couple of meetings to compensate, because it would be hard for me to work at that state. When I came home the day after, I got knocked off bed, since I know that my body is already at it limits.

At my mind, I always ask myself “why bother in doing all of these? Charity work is already dead nowadays”. To put myself to the limits for something… Useless, and indeed a waste of time… But still… She needs my help… At least, even for the slightest reason or just out of her own whim… She needed me…

Actually, it reminded me of my true intentions…

To erase all emotions… After all, she is not hurt in this instance…

But for Heidi… A thing that I can’t forgive myself of…
She got hurt… She felt betrayed…
If only I can talk to her now… and say sorry…
Is it too late..?

~ by raijeki on March 4, 2008.