Backtrack – Starting the new year right..?
It always makes me wonder right now about the things that are happening days ago, because they are really more than too good to be true…
Well, its a known fact that the Call Center industry does not have holidays, even Christmas – not because they’re sadists, but the terms of support that we did promised. Yes, me might be paid extravagantly for it, but you cannot pay for the times that you’re with your family and friends and just having fun and celebrating Christmas. Well, last year was a mortifying one since I have to work on that day, but this year is different. We are on a 4×11 workweek, and it is such a pain – physically and mentally. Out stats are kinda suffering due to the nature of the schedule, but we received something great. It was planned that we will change schedules by Dec. 23, but they extended it to January 7, 2008 – which is very nice. WHY? Our rest days are Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Saturdays – its just that Christmas last 07 is on a Tuesday. YEY! It was fun celebrating Christmas this year – with my relatives, family and my favorite cousins, it was a day like no other. I even decided to stay on their place for the rest of my rest days. For me, I was already blessed for that note, not to mention that I’ll be able to celebrate the New Year as well, but there was another thing that was waiting for me…
I was in Puerto Galera like 3 weeks ago, and because of some breath of boredom, I texted RD to get a phone number of an old friend. It was quite unpleasant at first since she doesn’t reply that fast, but we got an arrangement to meet before the holidays end. At that day, it was quite a drag but when we saw each other, I felt something that I haven’t felt for years. I had fun that night, not to mention that I was awake for more than 24 hours already,but it was indeed… Warm…
I tried to sort things out for a while… I’m already concerned about this, so I need to tell her… I need to see her again. We arranged for that, she was having a drag back at Law School, so I just went along with her all throughout the day. I just said to myself that maybe I’ll have another chance… So much for a judgment call.
One night, she was breaking down. I know she was – but coincidentally, I’m also at the same state as well. it was not as planned, but I spitted my mind out of it. Ever since that day, it seems that things changed. I became more disoriented at everything, but somehow my logic indicates that it’s been about 2 weeks since I last seen her. She was getting busy at Law School – I know that, I’m well aware of that… But reasoning rendered no good. I was texting things that I know are shocking to her, and maybe the reason that she didn’t contacted me for a while… In fact, up till now…
I do know and sense that whenever I experience something nice, a bad or worse event happens next – not exactly in regards to the previous events, just something in random.
In her last text, she told me that she felt betrayed… I also felt betrayed as well, that I’ve betrayed myself. And i know that she’s currently busy, the fact that the semester would come to an end by this month. I’m trying to focus myself on other things, but it will all go down the drain by April.
From the start, I already have a weak heart… A little push would go to its climax…
Can you forgive me… Heidi..?
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